drawings
disappearance of now
The images depicted come from a process of capturing moments of the present. It begins with an awareness that the fabric of our life, all that we experience, is just a string of inconsequential mundanities destined to be forgotten. These mundane “events” mean nothing, yet literally mean the world. They are the fabricate of our memories. And their slippage can’t help at times feel deeply personal and devastating. Occasionally I’ll be aware of the temperance of the present moment, and think, “this is my reality, I’ll soon forget this and it’ll be gone forever”. In that moment I’ll take a photo. Just like how we pick a pebble off a beach to remember the ocean, with a photo I am taking a memento of my present.
The best type of photo I found to capture such moments is through screenshots, especially when switching between open apps. The phone layers often reveal what we’re seeing, hearing, thinking of, and it can even capture the larger culture and news. I then take that millisecond captured in a screenshot and draw it. The millisecond expands to the length of time it takes me to draw it on Procreate, then expands more to time spent reformatting it, expands more to the length it takes to prepare and print on the fabric, and to the time it takes to sew it all together (which can be seen in my installation work of the same name). It continues to expand with each time it’s interacted with. These are my shards of ice from my estuary. Such time spent is my desperation.
project info
All drawings were done on Procreate.